Guiding Light Transcript Friday 1/23/09

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Previously on "Guiding Light"...

Reva: I don't expect you to get over losing Lara, but you will progress.

Mallet: For us to have a baby of our own is not going to happen.

Dinah: You can always adopt.

Reva: Can you be at a memorial service tomorrow?

Dinah: Shayne wants a memorial service for Lara?

Reva: Well, it was my idea.

Shayne: This is Shayne Lewis. Your daughter was the best person that I've ever met.

Josh: It's a nice idea, having a memorial service for Lara.

Reva: I think it will help Shayne.

Josh: You said you left him a message?

Reva: Well, I didn't want to leave it on his voicemail, but I told him that it was important, that it was about Lara, and to call me. I mean, there's still time.

Josh: Maybe I should go over there.

Reva: You know, I asked him if telling us about Lara helped, and he said it did. Well, actually, he nodded. He's been stuffing down his pain for so long, he really needs to grieve.

Josh: Maybe this will give him the chance.

Reva: I can't even imagine. The love of your life is there one minute, and the next she's gone.

Josh: Actually, I don't have to imagine.

Jeffrey: Hey.

Reva: Hi.

Jeffrey: Have you heard from Shayne?

Reva: Not yet.

Josh: I'm heading over there right now.

Jeffrey: You... you're sure you want to do this? Maybe... maybe he isn't ready.

Josh: Well, it's not an intervention. We're just trying to show some support, that's all.

Dinah: Mailbox full? Damn it, Shayne. Hi. Yeah, can I get a number for the motel off of Highway 52? The one right off the Springfield exit. Not that one. The dive right next to it. Thank you.

Mallet: You probably didn't need to bring all of that. You know, they'll probably just tell us what we need to know.

Marina: I know. I just want them to know that we went online, and we got our facts, and we're prepared... for this thing. Unless you think that this whole thing just screams, "These people obviously don't know what they're doing. They had to go to Howtoadoptababy.com, in order to get through their interview." Damn, where is... do you think anyone just heard me say that? Because I don't want them to think I cuss. Because I don't cuss. You know I don't cuss.

Mallet: I know. I know, sweetheart.

Marina: I just don't want to screw this up, okay? I don't want them walking in here and telling us, no baby for you. I mean, the doctors did that, and we almost gave up. And now...

Mallet: We're going to be fine. We're going to be fine, and we're going to be parents.

Doctor: Excuse me, Remy Boudreau?

Remy: Yeah?

Doctor: Dr. Malkin, Dean of Admissions at Johns Hopkins Medical School, and an old classmate of your father’s.

Remy: Oh, it's nice to meet you. You trying to reach my dad?

Doctor: Oh, no, no. I'm having lunch with Clayton later. It's nice to catch up when I have a chance to meet him in town. And I thought, while I'm here, why not give his son the good news in person. Congratulations, Remy. You've been accepted into Johns Hopkins Medical School.

Josh: Do you mind if I come in for a minute?

Shayne: No. Come on in.

Josh: Your mother told me you were walking.

Shayne: Yeah. I would've called, but I figured that she went ahead and told the whole town, so... obviously, I was right. Want a beer?

Josh: Well, it's a little early, but, yes, I'll have a beer with my son. That sounds great. Thank you. Um, here's to... progress. Do you mind if I sit?

Shayne: Please.

Josh: Are you sure that you don't want me to help you may be find a bigger apartment?

Shayne: I'm all good, Dad. Thank you. Why did you come buy, to sell me a condo?

Josh: Your mom left you a message yesterday.

Shayne: Well, is she okay? I was with her at the sonogram, and she was fine. What’s...

Josh: She's okay, and the baby's okay. The message was about Lara. Your mom and I would like to have a memorial service for her.

Shayne: I don't mean to seem ungrateful, but, you know, please tell Mom thank you, and I will see you later.

Josh: Son, son, son. Lara deserves this, and so do you.

Shayne: I don't deserve this. And, more importantly, Dad, I don't want this. So before you guys go making any of your big plans...

Josh: Actually, we already have.

Shayne: Hello, this is Shayne Lewis. I don't know you. I don't know how close the two of you were, but I thought you should know that your daughter was a very special person, and I miss her. I miss her every day. And I'm sorry. I'm sorry for your loss.

Reva: Hi. You're early.

Dinah: So, Shayne agreed to this?

Reva: Josh is talking to him now.

Dinah: Now?

Reva: Uh-huh.

Dinah: That's great. A great surprise. Reva, please, call this off. I would have said something to you yesterday, but you were too busy walking away from me.

Reva: Don't tell me how to take care of my son, Dinah.

Dinah: I wouldn't have to if you were doing a better job of it.

Reva: Shayne is mourning. And until recently, he was doing it all alone. This is what families do. They rally around each other in their times of need. It's healthy, and it's normal, which is probably why you don't understand it.

Dinah: This isn't about me. I don't know exactly what Shayne needs any more than you know, but what I can tell you is that he doesn't need this. Was I talking to myself the other day about hand-holding from Mommy is not going to do the trick here. Putting Shayne through this service, you don't know what it will do to him.

Reva: Oh, and you do?

Dinah: Honestly, no. But I'm the one he is talking to right now. And if I'm saying it is a bad idea, that should be enough to give you pause.

Reva: I don't pause when it comes to my family! What, do you think I hesitate when someone I love is in trouble? No. I don't expect Shayne to show up here and have all of his pain just disappear. But I do expect for him to come in here and maybe find some peace.

Dinah: Then maybe I should introduce you to your son, because I don't think you know who he is right now.

Christina: I want you to ask me who just did well on her MCATs?

Remy: I was there, remember?

Christina: How could I forget? But it's so much fun to tell people. Do you know that I just spent the entire morning calling all of the med schools that I applied to and telling them my updated score. Do you know that I think I'm going to get into one of my top draft picks?

Remy: Draft picks?

Christina: Remy, I've been dreaming about this for years. I've had more than enough time to organize the schools into tiers by their... are you okay?

Remy: Yeah. Yeah, I just got off my shift. What do you see over there?

Christina: Um... doctors. No, wait. Surgeons. Is this a test? Yeah, definitely surgeons. You know, I thought about being a surgeon. You know, something specialized, but I don't have to decide that until later, right? I wonder if they do that every day, come over here and talk about their cases. Or maybe it's best to leave it at work, you know. Just to know inside that maybe you saved a life today. To know that every day... well, you know, being a paramedic. What?

Remy: I can't hang long. I have to go to a memorial service.

Christina: No wonder you're acting so strange. Why didn't you tell me? Who died?

Remy: Shayne's girlfriend.

Christina: Oh, my God. I didn't even know he had a girlfriend.

Remy: He mentioned it a few times when we used to e-mail. He didn't bring it up, so I didn't ask when he came back. Word got out she died in some kind of accident over there. I should have asked.

Christina: You didn't know.

Remy: It all makes sense now, you know? The drinking, getting into fights. Losing someone so violently can make... can make you act out.

Christina: I'm going with you. I mean, I'm not demanding that I go with you, but I'm just saying that if you want me there, I... I will be there if you want me there.

Remy: I do. Thank you.

Marina: This is taking a lot longer than I thought it was going to. I promised Reva that I would be there for Shayne, for that memorial service for his girlfriend.

Mallet: Oh, yeah. Oh, yeah. Well, I'll finish up. Why don't you go? I'll finish up.

Marina: Can we even do that?

Mallet: Well, yeah. I mean, our answers are almost identical on everything. So, you know, I'll do it. And if I get stumped, I'll call you.

Marina: Really?

Mallet: Yeah.

Marina: Okay. We're really going to do this. Thank you. Good luck.

Mallet: Thank you.

Reva: The only reason you're here, Dinah, is because Shayne has picked you to depend on, but I don't trust you. I never have. And when I think about the things you did to my sister...

Dinah: That's right. You've never done anything wrong. I'm a different person now, Reva.

Reva: I don't buy that. People only change so much.

Dinah: And that's exactly the kind of thinking that's keeping you from seeing who your son is.

Reva: Maybe this was a mistake inviting you here.

Dinah: You and Josh won't accept that he is not the same Shayne. You're having a memorial service for someone who doesn't exist anymore.

Reva: I understand that he's changed.

Dinah: I don't think that you understand how much. He tells me things.

Reva: Well, he used to have better judgment. Now there's a change.

Dinah: I can help him.

Reva: He's not your project. Do you ever wonder why you're so alone, Dinah? Do you wonder why nobody ever sticks around for very long? It scares the living daylights out of everyone who loves Shayne that he's picked you to confide in. He's heard the highlights, but he doesn't have the benefit of knowing all of the lousy things you did when you came back to town. Nor was he in a position to understand everything you did when you left town! You worry that I don't know who my son is? I worry more that you don't know who you are.

Dinah: Well, I'm doing what I need to do. You're pregnant. You're battling cancer. You have a lot going on, all right? You leave Shayne to me.

Reva: You should go.

Shayne: I love you guys, but I need you to drop this. I mean, thank you for the thought, and thank Mom, too. But, Dad, I don't want to be a part of a memorial service for Lara.

Josh: I believe it will help.

Shayne: And I believe that you do believe that.

Josh: Look, everybody needs to feel connected, like they're not alone, especially at a time like this.

Shayne: Don't sermon me right now, please.

Josh: Just... Shayne, this was a last-minute thing. I don't even think there will be many people there. Why don't you just come with me, and take a look at what I'm talking about, and then make your decision.

Shayne: You know, I don't know what everyone expects from me, but I obviously can't give it to them, okay?

Josh: Nobody expects anything from you. We're trying to give you an opportunity to say a real good-bye to Lara. Otherwise, if you don't do that, you'll grieve for the rest of your life. You won't move on. Don't you think she would want you to move on?

Shayne: Don't say that.

Josh: I'm sorry. I apologize. Look, I know right now it seems like this pain that you feel is never going to go away, but you're young. You have your whole life ahead of you. You have the opportunity to live an extraordinary, meaningful life, accomplish great things. Look at what you've achieved already. But you're stuck right now in a bad place. And you think there's no way out. But there is a way out. You just need a little help seeing it, that's all. The service will be at the chapel in about an hour. I hope we see you there.

Jeffrey: Here you go.

Reva: Oh, they're beautiful.

Jeffrey: Well, they're not from me. I found them outside.

Reva: Oh. "For Lara, with love."

Jeffrey: Who are they from?

Reva: It doesn't say.

(Knock on the door)

Dinah: Your voicemail is full. I came by yesterday, and you weren't here.

Shayne: Yeah, come on in. Hey, what's up?

Dinah: Did you talk to Josh?

Shayne: Yes, I did.

Dinah: I tried to stop it. Your mom is convinced that you need to suffer through a memorial service.

Shayne: Did you just come from there?

Dinah: Yeah. Look, you... you don't have to go.

Shayne: You don't think I should go?

Dinah: No. There's going to be a bunch of people there who never knew Lara, talking about her like they do. And it will tick you off, because it doesn't take much.

Shayne: So that's your reason why I shouldn't go, because I might get a little cranky?

Dinah: And you're going to sit there the whole time blaming yourself for her death.

Shayne: I knew I should never have told you about my personal business.

Dinah: If you hadn't, you would still be in a wheelchair. And a lot easier to find. You've been doing a pretty damn good job of avoiding me.

Shayne: You and everyone else. But nobody seems to want to give me any time.

Dinah: You needed to tell somebody.

Shayne: I told you because you wouldn't shut up.

Dinah: The nicer people are at that service, the more it's going to make you feel like you killed her, which you didn’t. That was an accident.

Shayne: You sure about that?

Dinah: Yeah, it was mistake.

Shayne: Yeah? It was my job to clear that field.

Dinah: It was an accident, okay? And no one will blame you. You almost died in that blast. And your family means well, but they cannot force feed you closure. You know, I hate that word, too. I hate that word, too.

Shayne: Yeah, me, too.

Dinah: They should let you get there when you get there.

Shayne: I keep hearing about "there," and it sounds like a great place. Everyone says that when I get to "there" I'm going to be back to normal again. Everything is going to be just fine. I'm going to go back to doing great things. I'm going to have hope-tinted glasses looking at the world "there."

Dinah: Shayne, you don't have to go.

Mallet: Here we go. Thank you.

Woman: Mr. Camaletti?

Mallet: Yeah? Did I forget to sign something?

Woman: No. It looks like everything is here. I thought we might start with an informal interview.

Mallet: Oh, well, my wife just left for a memorial service.

Woman: There are many interviews involved. Joint, individual, formal, informal. We can at least start the process, if you're okay with that?

Mallet: Um, yeah. Let’s... um, sure.

Remy: Let me pay for this, and then we can go.

Christina: Okay. You got into Johns Hopkins Medical School? I'm sorry. I saw the envelope. I couldn't resist. Remy, why didn't you tell me? This is one of the best medical schools in the country!

Remy: I don't know.

Christina: Is it Shayne? What's going on with him? Is that... or maybe you just thought that I wasn't going to get into a school that good, so you don't want to hurt my feelings?

Remy: No, that isn't it.

Christina: What, then? Your parents must be over the moon.

Remy: I don't know if I want to go. I don't know if I want to be a doctor, okay? We should get to the church.

Reva: You know, maybe they're from Lara’s father. I mean, we don't know much about him.

Josh: Well, you would think he would have signed the card, though. Besides, how would he even know about this?

Reva: Maybe Shayne sent them. So he really said he wouldn't come? I mean, did he say that?

Josh: Actually, he didn't say much, except he doesn't want this.

Marina: You look like you're on duty.

Jeffrey: Just waiting to greet the guests.

Remy: Sorry we're late.

Jeffrey: That's okay. So is Shayne.

Reva: Hi, guys.

Josh: Thank you for coming.

Reva: We're just about to get started, so, um, you can go ahead and sit down.

Jeffrey: This is a lot for you.

Reva: No, no. It's fine. I'm fine. Let's just start.

Josh: We can't have a memorial service for Lara if Shayne’s not here.

Reva: There are still things that can be said, even without him here. So just call him again in a few minutes.

Josh: Okay.

Mallet: Well, we thought there was a possibility, you know, given the medical advancements, but, well, not in our case. So that's when we started thinking about adoption. And we really want a family, and we really want to give a kid a home.

Woman: Had you considered adoption during your previous marriages?

Mallet: No. No, it was never the right time. I don't think it was really the right marriage. I think Marina is the first relationship I've been in where I truly feel like we're a team. And maybe that's because we were really good friends before she was my wife. But, um, she's taught me so much.

Woman: She sounds like quite a woman. I look forward to meeting her. A quick question about your employment history.

Mallet: Yeah.

Woman: I see an eight-year gap between your job in Florida and the Warden's position.

Mallet: Yes. That... I was working, um, security in the private sector.

Woman: Well, if you could write your client references for that period of time, that would be helpful.

Mallet: No problem. Yes. Of course.

Reva: You can come up and say something if you'd like, or you don't have to. We could all just sit quietly with our thoughts.

Dinah: I'll sit on the inside in case you want to leave fast.

An empty room, crowded too soon

leave through the fire escape

Reva: I'm glad you came.

Picture myself, running

like hell

making my getaway

Marina: I guess I'll go first. I'm sad that I will never have the opportunity to know Lara in person, but I am so glad that while she was here, she got to know what it's like to be loved by Shayne. The happiness and the comfort of knowing that you're with a really great guy, one that never fails you. If Shayne says he is going to hit a homer for you, he does. And if you feel like you are so mad that you just need to throw plates, Shayne will stand by your side and hand you those plates. It's rare to find someone in this world that is so determined to make everything around him better.

Remy: Um, I'm not too good at this kind of thing, you know. Shayne, you're the strongest person I know, man. You're strong all around. You're the closest thing that I have to a brother, and that's a feat unto itself. I'm not always a treat to be around. You can ask her.

Christina: He's not. (Laughter) I don't know you, but I do know about loss. After my mother died, my grandmother used to say to me, "Chrissy, don't be greedy with your sadness when you've got someone still here who wants to take it away." It always seemed to help me.

Josh: Shayne, your mother and I have something for you that we hope will help. That's a press release that will go out tomorrow, announcing that the new building that is going up at the H.B. Lewis Memorial Hospital will be named in honor of Lara Pasano, who was killed while doing her part to make the world a safer place. It's a small way of connecting her forever to this family in the way that Shayne had intended. Reva and I will also be establishing a scholarship to be awarded to the student who best exemplifies her and Shayne’s dedication to helping others.

Dinah: You want to go?

Josh: Lara will never be forgotten.

Shayne: I need to say something. She was my best friend. I loved her very much. And I don't know what else to say. Everything that I wanted... ever wanted from this world was all... was all wrapped up in the life that we were planning together, and then she was gone. And I felt like I wasn’t... I wasn't really living, you know. I was kind of existing... kind of. And then Dinah found me. I know that I haven't been easy to deal with. But it has been really good to be home, to see all of you. Especially my parents. Dad, I'm really sorry about earlier. I just didn't know if I could do this.

Josh: That's okay. You're doing fine.

Shayne: And I want all of the bad stuff to be behind us. The accident, everything. Okay? Because I need you to know that you are the best man I've ever met, and I do think that you and Mom should still be together. But I guess, obviously, Jeffrey, you make her happy, and you better keep it up. And, Mom, I'm really happy that you're having this baby. I haven't told you, but I'm happy, because I've never seen you smile so much. And you were right the other day when you said that you are going to make it.

Reva: I'm sorry, but I believe what I said that we... we're going to make it, the two of us.

Frank: What happened to you?

Mallet: Nothing. A long day. Lots of paperwork.

Frank: I thought you had the day off?

Mallet: Yeah. Um, we... um, I should let Marina tell you. She's going to be here soon. She went to that memorial service for Shayne’s girlfriend.

Frank: Yeah, I heard about that. That's a shame.

Mallet: So we went to an adoption agency today.

Frank: What?

Mallet: Yeah.

Frank: I'm going to be a grandfather? Grandpa Frank? Grandpa Frank! I don't know, that's not going to go well with the ladies.

Mallet: Can you remember that this is about me?

Frank: Come on, man! Congratulations! Well, it's not just about you. It's about Marina and the baby! That's awesome!

Mallet: No, no, no. Frank, slow down. There's no baby yet. I mean, they don't just pass them out. You don't just go to Baby Mart and get one at the checkout counter.

Frank: Are you okay about all of this?

Mallet: Yeah, I'm great about this. This is what I want, more than anything. I want a family with Marina. But, Frank, it's a complicated process. You know, I mean, I don't want to get her hopes up. I don't want her to get disappointed. She keeps reassuring me she's in no rush to be a mother.

Frank: Well, you know what? I've got to tell you that even as a kid, she wanted to have kids. She had 50 million little baby dolls, and she'd dress them up and push them around in a stroller. And then she'd be like, "Dad, Dad, look, aren't I a good mother? Aren't I good mother?" She was adorable.

Mallet: Thanks, Frank. That's all very helpful. Hey. How was it?

Remy: Thanks for helping me out back there.

Christina: Remy, you're the one who helped me out.

Remy: This is kind of weird, you know? What Shayne said to us... I almost felt guilty.

Christina: Why?

Remy: Because he lost someone, and I'm sitting there with someone.

Christina: He was talking to us like a real couple.

Remy: Yeah.

Christina: It was kind of weird. I guess we are, right? I mean, we're at least married. I told you didn't have take me if you didn't want to.

Remy: I wanted you to be there.

Christina: I'm going to miss you when you go to Baltimore.

Remy: I don't want to go.

Christina: That's insane. Johns Hopkins Medical School, Remy.

Remy: I got in because of my dad.

Christina: Uh-uh. They don't give free passes to schools like that. I'm not going to sit here and let you sell yourself short.

Remy: I'd rather do that than sell out.

Christina: Then go talk to the Dean.

Remy: And say what?

Christina: Ask him why you got in. Ask him if you're qualified. If not, then pass on the offer. You accidentally married a very wise woman.

Remy: One of the better mistakes I have made.

Christina: Uh-huh. I should say so. (Laughter)

Reva: Why don't you and your dad come home to the house were with us? We'll have dinner together and we can talk some more.

Josh: Sounds good to me.

Shayne: I need to go. But, I wanted to, um, say thank you for doing this. It really would have meant a lot to Lara to know that my family loved her without even knowing her.

Josh: I hope it helped.

Shayne: It did. I love you guys.

The ship is sinking, I've

got to swim for it

I got a feeling we're better

off anyway.

I don't care what they say.

So, break me out tonight.

Reva: You know, he may want to be alone.

Oh, this could be.

The only chance we get.

We've got to take it.

But don't do it now.

We'll never make it.

Let's lose this crowd.

Break me out.

Break me out.

Remy: Dr. Malkin?

Doctor: Remy, I thought you would off celebrating that you got into Johns Hopkins.

Remy: Yeah. Yeah, I have a question about that. Did I meet your med school requirements, or was this just a favor for my father? I mean, you can tell me. I know my dad can be very persuasive.

Doctor: (Laughs) I'm impressed. You know, most students wouldn't care. They'd take a favor where they can get it.

Remy: So it was a favor?

Doctor: Most certainly not. Remy, not only did you meet our qualifications, you exceeded them. Your admission package, your test scores, your work here as an E.M.T.... I mean Clayton can be persuasive, but he had nothing to do with this. You've earned this all on your own.

Remy: Oh, thank you.

Doctor: You're fortunate. You know, most of our applicants have the desire to be a great doctor, but you have the merits to become one. I look forward to seeing you at orientation.

Remy: And, Dr. Malkin, thank you, but I know someone who has both, both the desire and the merit.

Doctor: And you're saying you don't?

Remy: I appreciate the offer, but I can't accept, not knowing there's someone who deserves it more.

Marina: It was just so sad. You know? The thing that Shayne wanted most in his life was to have a future with this girl. What do you do when you lose a chance at the one thing you want the most?

Mallet: Well, I'm sorry I wasn't there for you.

Marina: No. It's okay. How did it go with the agency?

Mallet: The agency... the agency was good. I turned in all of the paperwork, and I talked to one of the adoption counselors. And, um, we are off and running. The process is under way. (Laughter)

Marina: We're very lucky, you know? Everything that we want... we can still have it.

Dinah: Shayne!

Shayne: What are you doing here right now, Dinah!

Dinah: So that was your good-bye?

Shayne: Just leave me alone, please!

Dinah: What you said at the church?

Shayne: Leave me alone!

Dinah: I thought I knew what was holding you together, but this was it. You knew you were coming here?

Shayne: I really don't want you here for this right now.

Dinah: Please. Help me understand. What about having everybody there drove you here?

Shayne: I've been here! How many people do you know park on train tracks?

Dinah: The fire. You went in... you went in thinking that you were going to just what, suffocate?

Shayne: It should have already have happened.

Dinah: No. No, no one should have died in that blast, not you, not Lara.

Shayne: It wasn't the same blast! Lara died, and after that happened, I just didn't give a... I was supposed to clear that field. It was on me. I missed one. And after she was gone, I figured, what the hell. I went back to that field, and I walked through it.

Dinah: You walked through an active mine field? Trying to get yourself killed?

Shayne: If there was any justice in the world, it would have happened.

Reva: I guess we should take these back to the house. I just wish Shayne were coming with us.

Josh: I think this was good for him. That's the most he's said since he's come back.

Reva: He's still in so much pain.

Edmund: Lara Pasano's memorial service?

Jeffrey: I'm sorry you missed it. Were you a friend?

Edmund: I was her father.

Coming up on "Guiding Light"...

Reva: My son, your daughter.

Edmund: Fate, Reva, connecting us again.

Dinah: Don't be an idiot. Do you think Lara would want this?

Shayne: You knew nothing about her!

Edmund: Hate me all you want, but because of Lara, we're part of each other's lives again, whether we like it or not.

Dinah: I've got nothing, just like you. I've got no boat, no paddle.

Shayne: What the hell are you doing? Dinah!

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