The Bold & The Beautiful Tuesday 4/16/02
By
Linda
Proofread by Becky
Amber: I can't even feel you, my body's so numb.
Rick: I love you so much.
Amber: Sorry I scared you.
Rick: It wasn't your fault.
Amber: I should've rested more.
Rick: No, Amber. The doctor told me you didn't do anything wrong.
Amber: You don't have to worry now. I can rest. I can forget about the Ambrosia line, focus on the baby.
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Bridget: I feel like we should be in there, but then I'm glad I'm not. I'm sorry. That sounded really horrible.
Stephanie: No, it doesn't.
Bridget: It's just, if I had to see the look on Amber's face, when she finds out she lost the baby -- I would lose it. Oh god, poor Rick.
Stephanie: How did he take it?
Eric: It was hard for him. It was very hard for him to hear the news.
Bridget: They told us the baby was fine, that it had a strong heartbeat. And then, no warning -- gone.
Stephanie: He was so excited at the thought of being a father again.
Bridget: And now he's lost two. He didn't even get a chance to know either one of them.
Stephanie: Maybe Bridget's right, one of us should be in there.
Eric: No, no.
Stephanie: Amber's gonna need to talk to someone.
Eric: Rick's in there with her. He's stronger, I think, than you know.
Stephanie: Eric, they've just lost a child, and they're children themselves.
Eric: Not after this.
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Amber: I ruined your whole night, didn't I?
Rick: Oh, Amber. Amber, you mean so much to me. No matter what happens, we will always have each other.
Amber: And our children. Does Eric know I'm here?
Rick: I talked to him.
Amber: Tell him I'm okay?
Rick: Yeah.
Amber: Good. Did you tell him his mommy's a huge success?
Rick: We didn't get into that.
Amber: He wouldn't care. But it matters to me. I want him to know -- I want everyone to know -- I'm not just some gold-digger. I have something to offer.
Rick: Amber, that was always true.
Amber: Yeah -- the ambrosia line is just the beginning. Wait till they see my next production -- our little baby. I can't wait to meet her. What's wrong? Tell me what's the matter.
Amber: Sweetie?
Rick: Amber, how much do you remember about what happened?
Amber: I remember -- I remember being on the runway. The flowers and -- everyone was clapping. Then the pain -- I remember the pain. And I fell.
Rick: You were unconscious. We brought you here in an ambulance.
Amber: And I woke up. And -- and they said that the baby was okay. And that maybe -- maybe it was my kidney -- kidney stone. They had to do surgery then. Isn't that right?
Rick: Yeah, that's what they said.
Amber: Oh -- I'm so relieved. I thought maybe I -- I pushed too hard and I hurt the baby.
Rick: No, Amber, you didn't do anything wrong. It wasn't your fault.
Amber: I had the nicest dream. I had a dream that I had the baby. Not -- not now because -- no, it's too soon. But in my dream it wasn't. She was -- she was so healthy and so sweet.
Rick: It was a girl in your dream?
Amber: And you were such a wonderful daddy.
[ Amber sighs ] I'm gonna do that. I'm gonna make you a daddy.
Rick: Amber, I --
Amber: I know. I know -- you think of Eric as your own.
Rick: Yes. Yes, I do. And if he was the only child we ever had, it would be okay.
Amber: Who are you kidding? You want a whole house full. You already said so.
Rick: No, no, Amber. That was -- that was just talk. That was just a daydream.
Amber: Well, you can't back out now, buster. There's a baby on the way. Rick? Oh, my god. Where's my baby? Oh, god. Where is she?
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Bridget: I wish mom was here. Don't say it, okay? Please?
Stephanie: I have nothing to say. I'm here -- we're all here just to try and help Amber and Rick to get through this. That's all that matters.
Bridget: I don't know how to do that. I mean, I can't imagine anything that I could say that would make this easier for them.
Eric: There isn't anything you can say. They just need to know that they don't have to go through this alone.
Stephanie: But they will. They're going to go through it alone, Eric. They're the ones that lost the baby. We can't even begin to understand what they're gonna go through. You know, when you get pregnant, you're so happy. You feel it's such a privilege. You think this little child has chosen you to bring him or her into the world. Then something terrible like this happens and you say to yourself -- who do you blame? Why? And there is no one to blame. So you look to yourself, and you start to think that you're the one that's failed the baby.
Bridget: The doctor said Amber didn't do anything wrong.
Stephanie: Yeah, but she's not gonna look at it that way. She's insecure to begin with. And here she was so happy to be doing this for Rick -- to finally be giving him something that he really, really wanted.
Bridget: And now she can't -- maybe ever.
Stephanie: What?
Bridget: The doctor wouldn't say for sure. But it sounded like -- it sounded like amber might not ever be able to have kids.
Stephanie: Oh, god.
Eric: Rick is not gonna tell her that tonight.
Stephanie: I don't know. I don't understand any of this. Here's this wonderful young girl -- so filled with love, and such a wonderful mother. To come this close, and to lose it -- to have it all snatched away from you like that. You know what I'm worried about? I'm afraid Amber is liable to start thinking that there's no point -- no point to even trying, 'cause if you do you lose. Oh, my poor little girl.
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Amber: It's too soon. It's too soon. You let them take our baby?
Rick: I didn't know what was happening.
Amber: But I don't understand, I mean, why would they do this?
Rick: Amber, it was an emergency.
Amber: No, no. I saw -- I saw the monitor! I saw her heart she was fine. She was fine.
Rick: Amber, you were bleeding to death! The baby wasn't getting any oxygen.
Amber: She's so little.
Rick: Shh. Shh.
Amber: I wanted to protect my baby.
Rick: Amber, Amber, listen to me. You did everything you could. You did everything you could. This was not your fault.
Amber: I don't understand. I thought it was just a kidney stone.
Rick: An artery ruptured. They didn't see it at first, but Amber, you could've died. So please, please lay back down. You had a -- you had surgery.
Amber: But she's okay? She's okay. It's a little girl, isn't it? Yeah?
Rick: Yeah, it was a girl.
Amber: I knew it. I knew it. She must be so tiny. Rick, is it serious?
[ Amber crying ] oh, my little baby. She -- there's really good doctors here. They have some of the best. She's gonna be okay.
Rick: Amber, Amber --
Amber: No, listen. I want to see her. I want to see her right now. I want you to take me to her right now.
Rick: I can't.
Amber: Rick, Rick, I don't care what's wrong with her. She's my baby, and I love her! I am her mother. I need to be with her!
Rick: Amber, Amber, please don't.
Amber: Rick, take me to my baby!
Rick: She didn't make it!
Amber: What?
Rick: The baby -- our baby died.
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Eric: Amber is gonna get through this. She has Rick, and their marriage is stronger than it's ever been.
Stephanie: Thank god for that.
Bridget: And she has little Eric and her career. She can concentrate on that.
Eric: Stephanie, you said it yourself that she's come a long way. I've been working very closely with her. I'm very -- I'm very impressed with her determination and her maturity. She's changed.
Bridget: She had to, if she wanted to hang on to Rick.
Stephanie: Well, I think it's more than just hanging on to Rick. She loves him. I mean, she's got their whole future planned out in her mind. I mean, that's what drives her. And now for her to find out that perhaps that future is unreachable --
Eric: This is Amber we're talking about. She gets knocked down, and she comes back up fighting.
Stephanie: Well, how many times can you knock one person down before they lose all hope?
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Amber: She died? My baby died. She died.
Rick: Amber, it was not your fault. The doctor said that there was nothing you could do to prevent it. You understand that, right? It wasn't from working too hard or anything like that, Amber. It would've happened no mattered what.
Amber: I would have lost her anyway. Why?
Rick: I -- I don't know.
Amber: Why?
Rick: I don't know, honey. I am so sorry. I am so sorry.
[ Amber crying ]
Amber: Oh, god. I am such an idiot!
Rick: What?
Amber: How much do I need? How much do I need to get it through my head, it's not gonna happen for me.
Rick: That is not true. Amber, we are gonna have everything we ever wanted -- just not right now.
Amber: My son -- and now my little girl.
Rick: Amber, this is -- this is nothing like last time. It was an accident, Amber. You're just in shock.
Amber: No. This -- this is not shock. Okay? I get it. I finally get it. Other people -- they are allowed to be happy. And the one thing -- but when it comes to me -- maybe -- maybe I would've done something to hurt them someday.
Rick: Are you crazy? Amber, you would've loved those babies with everything in your heart.
Amber: Then why did god take them away?
Rick: I don't know. I don't know.
Amber: I do. It's because I didn't deserve them.
Rick: No, no, Amber. Amber, don't say that. Don't say that! You deserve to be happy more than anybody else, Amber. I love you so much. I love you so much. It's gonna happen for us, I promise.
[ Amber sobbing ]
