One Life to Live Transcript Thursday 7/15/04
Proofread by Brian
Riley: I've been searching for the heart to keep on pushing through this life making circles in the dark and hoping for a sign to help me carry on someday I'm gonna walk away someday I'm gonna let it go someday I won't be here to stay I pray for love
Woman: Why have all the angels left? The world used to be full of them everywhere you looked. Now they've all gone away. Or maybe we scared them all away. Maybe. Hold on to your angel. Don't ever let him go.
Kelly: Hey. I didn't see you there.
John: I wasn't there very long. Heard you got your son back. Little fellow doesn't look any worse for the wear. I'm just glad everything worked out.
John: Hey. You ok? What is it?
Jen: Go away, please!
Woman: Look closer! Look -- I remember you. Why don't you remember me?
Jen: I do, but I don't have any money, so --
Woman: Money may be the only thing you do have. Look for the angels. They'll help you find the way.
Kevin: Hey. There's no angels around here. Go look someplace else, ok?
Woman: No way back for you. Too far gone.
Kevin: Get out of here.
Riley: Someday I'm gonna walk away
Kevin: Crazy old bag.
Jen: Kevin, what's wrong? What's going on?
Evangeline: That's some sigh.
Todd: Hey. It's been some day, huh? Just glad it's over.
Evangeline: Should I take that as a hint?
Todd: Hmm -- no, please. I'd love to buy you a drink. I'm waiting for Blair.
Evangeline: Blair? You guys are back together?
Todd: We're back on track.
Evangeline: Wow. Good for you, Todd.
Evangeline: The same.
Riley: Someday I'm gonna
Evangeline: I'm jealous.
Riley: Let it go
Todd: Of me or Blair?
Riley: I pray for love
Todd: Go ahead, talk to me.
Riley: Before I go before I go
Jessica: Sorry, the meeting went late. Ugh. I'm so happy you're here, though. All I could do during the meeting was sit around and think about how you'd be waiting for me when I got home. I missed you so much. I thought I'd never be able to hold you again or make love to -- oh, my God.
Woman: You need the angels to come back. You need their help.
Antonio: Thank you.
Natalie: Have you seen Jessica?
Antonio: Not yet. We're going to meet at home in a little while.
Natalie: What's that?
Antonio: I'm just trying to find out if someone really is who they say they are.
Natalie: Are you?
Antonio: What's that supposed to mean?
Natalie: Well, I don't know. You were some kind of a supercop, and then you find out you're related to the Santis, and now there's the new you, the bad cop, heir to lots and lots of dirty money. So which is it, Antonio?
Antonio: I never changed, Natalie. I went undercover to bring down the Santis. I did it. It's over.
Natalie: Then why are you still working on this case? I mean, what if the Santis are still out there somewhere regrouping? What if they come after you?
Antonio: It's not going to happen. Look, I can't discuss this with you, Natalie. You know that.
Natalie: Right. Just don't do what Cristian did to me. Do not make Jessica a widow.
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Tico: No, hey -- no problem. It's my fault.
Jessica: I didn't know, obviously. God, I'm so embarrassed.
Tico: I'm sorry.
Jessica: No, no, it's not your fault. You don't have to apologize. I just -- where's Antonio?
Tico: I don't know. He -- I think he's at work. He said I could sleep here for a few hours.
Jessica: Ok. Well, how about you just go back to sleep and I'm just going to go.
Tico: Oh, no. I'm wide awake now.
Jessica: I guess so, obviously. Jeez.
Tico: It's not your fault. It's just every time I try to go to sleep, I, you know, I think of being left in that vault, and --
Jessica: Oh, I'm sorry.
Tico: No, hey, you saved my life.
Jessica: Yeah, it was just luck.
Tico: Hey, please, don't go. Talk to me.
Natalie: Then why are you still working on this case?
Antonio: I'm doing my job, Natalie.
Natalie: You know, Antonio, I really don't care what the job description is. You're going after your own family. This investigation is personal, and you know it.
Antonio: What, did you go to bartending psychology school or something?
Natalie: Don't you know I've been where you are? This whole new family -- you want to see if you can fit in, if you fit in.
Natalie: None of this matters at all, but of all the people that I know, you always seemed the most sure of yourself. You always know what you want.
Antonio: I did. Yeah. Yeah, I -- I have this new family. A bunch of killers and thieves, drug runners --
Natalie: That doesn't say --
Antonio: It's in my blood, Natalie. And I was a part of that life before, remember?
Natalie: Because you were in a gang? Don't give me that. You left that a long time ago.
Antonio: Yeah, well, it doesn't mean that I still don't feel the pull sometimes. And you wouldn't be running around with that sleazeball Cramer if you weren't confused about which world you belonged to, either.
Natalie: That's different. Paul's not a criminal. Not anymore.
Antonio: No. You've changed since Cristian died. Don't you know he's watching over you, wondering what the hell you're doing?
John: Oh, it's ok, Ms. Buchanan, I know you had a rough couple of days. You think maybe that Cochran woman hurt your baby? Is that why you're upset?
Kelly: No. He's fine.
John: You don't have to worry about her anymore. She's been committed to St. Ann's. She can't hurt you and your family again.
Kelly: I don't really have much of a family anymore. Kevin is -- is lost to me. Have you ever tried to hold on to something so hard, but no matter what you do, it slips right through your fingers?
John: Yeah, I think I know what that's like.
Kelly: You've lost someone, too?
John: Couldn't do anything to stop it.
Kelly: How do you get past that? How do you get past the days where it feels like it might just be a relief to go insane; to be like that woman talking to the angels? How do you remember that there's a future?
John: It still haunts me.
Kelly: I can't let that happen to me. I wonít. Come here. I don't want to be like my mother or Margaret Cochran, driven to a room with a locked door. I have my child, and he's the most important thing now. It's more important than Kevin. It's more important than anything. I'm never going to let anyone hurt me like that ever again.
Kevin: Actually, he called a couple weeks ago, said London was good. I'm really sorry it didn't work out for the two of you.
Jen: Yeah, well, how could it have, really? I was trying so hard to be somebody I wasnít. You know, I had this idea in my head of this perfect wife, and he was trying to hold it together. It just -- it wasn't real.
Kevin: Well, you two had a real connection. Seriously, I saw it.
Jen: Well, he was too good for his own good, and I messed things up.
Kevin: Good. Good. I'm telling you, good is overrated. People who try to do good are just wasting their time.
Jen: Well, Mother Teresa would be very bummed to hear that.
Kevin: No, you can't beat yourself up for wanting what you want and doing what you want. Canít. You know, you just -- you just have to take care of yourself, numero uno. To hell with the rest of the people.
Jen: You're really different when you drink. You don't even really sound like yourself.
Kevin: You probably just don't know me as well as you think you do. You know who you should talk to is my mother. She has a lot to say about me. Talk to anybody, really. They just -- they all think that I'm a lousy person. Maybe they're right. You know, maybe -- maybe I am a lousy person. Maybe I should just give in to it.
Todd: The question is, what do you do those things for?
Evangeline: Exactly. I mean, because the future is never here with me. It's always right in front of me, and I think -- I think I need to just forgive myself for wanting every once in a while to just enjoy the moment, you know?
Todd: I do know. I do. You know I'm ambitious. I stop at nothing to get what I want. And I finally got what I want, and it's great. But I'll be damned if I'm not going to enjoy every moment of it right now.
Evangeline: Must be nice.
Todd: Yeah, it is.
Evangeline: That is what I envy about you.
Todd: Evangeline -- what you have to forgive yourself for is not seeing who you really are. Open your eyes. You are successful, you're smart, you're confident. You're absolutely beautiful. You're perfect.
Evangeline: Oh. I'm a lawyer, so I'm really good at faking it.
Todd: You're telling me you have some flaws?
Evangeline: Not a single one.
Kevin: Well, I just need a little lubrication to bring it out.
Jen: Well, you're a total politician.
Kevin: Oh, not anymore.
Jen: No, that's not what I mean. I just mean you're so driven, ambitious.
Kevin: Well, don't forget smart, rich, and great teeth.
Jen: And gutsy.
Kevin: Gutsy? I like that.
Jen: Yeah. It takes guts to steal your brother's wife and marry her. You stole Reverend Carpenter's wife, too, didn't you?
Kevin: Oh. I guess you -- look, you know, maybe --
Jen: No, I mean, I used to do that, too, all the time. But I didnít even think about being with a guy afterwards. I just wanted to see if I could win.
Kevin: You think I'm like that?
Jen: I think you try really hard to be Mr. Perfect.
Kevin: Well, I'm not doing a very good job.
Jen: Because deep down, you're just waiting for an excuse to grab whatever you want.
Kevin: Shouldn't you be home, like, studying for something or something?
Jen: Did I hit a nerve?
Kevin: What do you want from me? Hmm? For God's sake, what does anybody want from me?
John: You know, it's -- it's pretty late. Would you -- would you like a ride back to Asa's place?
Kelly: I'm not staying there anymore. Kevin wants a divorce.
John: I'm sorry. I didn't know.
Kelly: So Ace and I have moved back to my Aunt Dorianís.
John: Ok. Do you want me to take you there?
Kelly: No, I have my own car.
John: I guess it's good night. By the way, that thing you said about fighting back? You were right. Don't ever lose that.
Jessica: Yeah. It was -- whew -- it was horrible when we had to pretend that we were split up when he was undercover. I mean, we have this incredible life, and we just had to put it on hold or -- it was almost like it was in danger.
Tico: Yeah, be careful.
Jessica: Of --
Tico: Well, Antonio seems like a good man, and a good cop, but we had a lot of time to talk in Puerto Rico.
Jessica: Is something wrong?
Tico: It's just a feeling. He seems to be obsessed with my father, his family.
Jessica: You mean as a cop, right?
Tico: As a man.
Jessica: Well, the Santis are his family, so --
Tico: No, I don't mean that. I mean that world. The world of my father is sexy, you know? There's power and money, and it can look glamorous from the outside. You know, sometimes it's easier to embrace that life than it is to resist it.
Jessica: No, you misunderstood. He's just -- he's just doing his job.
Tico: I hope so. It must have been quite a shock for someone like Antonio to learn that he was related to El Toro Santi.
Jessica: Well, Antonio was a part of that world at one time. He -- he led a really powerful gang. He was called El Leon.
Tico: The lion. I can see that.
Jessica: Yeah, but he gave it up a long time ago. I mean, he knew there was no way out except --
Jessica: He'd never go back.
Tico: Yeah, I certainly hope not.
Natalie: Watching me make mistake after mistake? Yeah, probably.
Antonio: And that doesn't change anything?
Natalie: Cristian left me here. It's not like I can go check with him first before I do something. I know who I am, and I know what I have to do.
Antonio: Like me.
Natalie: Like we're the same?
Antonio: Maybe. We always keep digging. When something grabs us, we don't understand it, so we follow it all the way to the end, even if we know we're headed down the wrong road, because we have no choice. Who we are, where do we fit? We need to know what's real on the street. That's more important than anything, because that's who we are.
Natalie: Cristian changed that for me.
Antonio: And then he left you. So we're both back to where we started.
Natalie: Looking for answers.
Antonio: And maybe afraid to find out what those answers might be.
_____________________________________________________________________________________________________________Jessica: Antonio lost his brother Cristian last year. He misses him so much. Doesn't really talk about it, though. And then you came along. I don't know, having you in his life might be good for him. I hope you'll stay, get to know him better.
Tico: Yeah, well, that depends. Antonio seems to think that he's broken the Santi organization.
Jessica: What do you mean?
Tico: If the Santis reorganize, they will come after him. And when they do, either they'll make his life such hell that he'll beg for death, or they'll make him one of them. Either way, he loses.
Jessica: Why are you saying this to me?
Tico: Because you saved my life, and Antonio set me free. I would hate for anything to happen to you.
Antonio: I miss him, too.
Natalie: You're obviously thinking about him a lot.
Antonio: Yeah, I just -- I don't understand why someone so good had to die.
Natalie: Yeah, I used to dream about him every night; that he was reaching his hand down and touching my heart. I don't have those dreams anymore.
Antonio: Yeah, I don't -- I don't dream about him that much anymore, either.
Natalie: I don't think that it's me forgetting him. I think that it's Cristian letting me go. What's funny is that Cristian really loved me for who I am, and he never wanted me to be anything else. And you're right, Antonio. After he died, I did lose my way for a while, but I found it again. I'm going to be ok, and Cristian can finally let me go.
Antonio: To Paul Cramer?
Natalie: I'm not going to anyone. I know who I am. You may not like it. I know mom and Jessica definitely don't, but I know, and you can't compare me to you, because I moved on. I'm not looking in the past, whereas, with the Santis, you're turning back. And you say it's to protect those that you love, but if you're not careful, those that you love are going to be dragged down right with you.
Kevin: I don't want to hear anything from you, all right?
Kelly: You've had a lot to drink. Why don't you let me take you home?
Kevin: No, I don't want you to help me. You've already done way too much for me.
Kelly: How did this happen to us? How did we get to this point?
Kevin: Well, we probably shouldn't have started in the first place. Don't you think?
Kelly: What do you mean?
Kevin: We betrayed Joey so that we could be together for this. That's great. I mean, you know, maybe it was just hopeless, you know, to start with. Maybe it was doomed in the beginning.
Kelly: You don't really believe that.
Kevin: I don't know what to believe anymore. You know, everything you asked me to believe was a lie. That's sad. So, I'm through. We're through. I have to go.
Jen: Oh --
Kevin: Oh -- hello, Jen.
Jen: Kevin --
Kevin: No, shh, shh, shh. Don't bother. You've said enough. Really.
Kelly: Welcome to life with Kevin Buchanan.
Todd: The real issue is that you're lonely. I think. And you're a workaholic so you can avoid thinking about the fact that you're lonely. But you do think about it once in a while, don't you? Maybe at night when you're done working and you crawl into bed by yourself, and it's dark and it's quiet. I think R.J. really screwed up.
Evangeline: I wish I could tell you that R.J. was the one that's screwed up, but he was -- he was possessive, and he was controlling, and I don't like to be controlled. I kind of like being in charge.
Todd: Hmm. Who doesn't? Huh.
Evangeline: So, you have any advice for the lonely?
Todd: Not off the top of my head. But he is out there.
Evangeline: Maybe closer than I think.
Todd: Who are we talking about?
_____________________________________________________________________________________________________________Tico: What causes a man to turn away from what's good? I mean, is it a sudden break or is it something that eats away at him slowly? Or maybe it's different for everyone. I mean, for Antonio, for instance, it could be that --
Jessica: Stop it! Antonio's nothing like your father, ok?
Tico: Well, I certainly hope not. But, you know, with the reality, sometimes it's --
Jessica: Stop it! Stop it! I'm scared enough as it is, ok? I don't need you reminding me of it. You don't even know us. You don't know anything about us. And we don't know anything about you. We don't even know if you are who you say you are. But you're here, you're in our house, you're sleeping in our bed, and we don't know anything about you!
Antonio: What's going on? I can hear you in the hall. What happened?
Jessica: I just got to get out of here.
Antonio: What did you do?
Todd: Yeah. She decided she doesn't want to come by. She's got some surprise for me at home.
Evangeline: Good for you. I know how much you want this.
Todd: You mean Blair?
Evangeline: Peace. Don't screw it up.
Todd: No, I learned my lesson, but you're going to get what you want soon.
Evangeline: Soon? I hope.
Todd: I think so.
Evangeline: Go home to Blair.
Jen: Why do you care? You guys split up, right?
Kelly: Yeah, right. We're not connected in any way. We're through.
Jen: I know how you're feeling right now.
Kelly: I really doubt that.
Jen: Look, I know you don't like me, but I've changed so much. And you know why? Because the minute I stopped thinking about myself things got so much better. And, you know, I realized that --
Kelly: You know, Jen, I really don't care about anything that you have to say.
Jen: Probably not. But it doesn't make what I'm saying wrong, because it's not. Everything is not about me, Kelly. Think about it.
Natalie: Well, the grill's shut down, but you can get a sandwich or a salad.
Evangeline: Chef Salad?
Natalie: Hey, Tony? Chef on the go. Balsamic on the side.
Natalie: So, how's John?
Evangeline: Fine -- I guess.
Natalie: Good, good.
Evangeline: Why are you asking me?
Natalie: Word gets around -- perk of being a bartender. John deserves to be happy. Obviously, I couldn't do that for him.
Evangeline: What are you talking about?
Natalie: Oh, come on. You are sleeping with him, right?
John: So, what happened here?
Officer: Mr. Buchanan here ran a red light. When I pulled him over, he failed a breathalyzer. I had to arrest him.
Jen: You're right. It is.
John: What the hell are you doing here, trying to throw your life down the tubes in one night? -- And get the hell off my desk.
Kevin: Oh, I'm sorry. I was going to lay down. Apparently, you're my shrink now. Let me tell you something. You couldn't even begin to understand a guy like me. You know that? Not in a million years. I don't even understand.
John: Yeah, I can see that. You know, the thing is, Mr. Buchanan, once you're down in the tank, you're just another drunk who got caught, and no one's going to care who you are or how rich or how dumb.
Kevin: You can't lock up Kevin Buchanan for having a couple of drinks. Come on.
John: Despite what you and your grandfather think, you're not immune to the law. Why is it that Bo is the only Buchanan who seems to get that?
Kevin: Fine. Lock me up. It'd be a perfect ending to a God-awful day.
John: I'm just glad I could help.
Kevin: Let me tell you something. When the dust settles, everyone's going to know the truth.
John: I know. You're not really a bad guy. You just got the short end of the stick.
Kevin: That's right. And I'll tell you another thing. Things are going to change. There's going to be a lot of people that are very, very sorry.
Jessica: Nothing, nothing. It's just this whole situation. I'm just having trouble sinking in, you know?
Antonio: Well, that's all right. It's over now.
Jessica: Yeah. God, I just miss you so much, you know? I just -- being able to touch you. I just -- I'm never moving out again, no matter what you say.
Antonio: You and Jamie are safe, ok? That's all that matters.
Jessica: Just promise me that this is all over and that you'll bring Jamie home and we can just be a family again.
Antonio: I swear. I promise you I am not going to let anyone or anything ever come between us again.
Stay tuned for scenes from the next "One Life to Live."
Shannon: You know what's going to happen if we don't stop.
Carlotta: I want to introduce you to your half brother, Augustico.
Antonio: I don't know why I took him in so fast. I think I made a mistake.
Dorian: I am not going to let Blair hurt you.
Kelly: How are you going to stop her?
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