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Interview with Clare Crawley of "The
Bachelor" on
ABC 2/6/14
TRANSCRIPT FROM THE FEBRUARY 6 “THE BACHELOR”
TELECONFERENCE WITH CLARE CRAWLEY
“The Bachelor” airs MONDAYS (8:00 p.m. – 10:01 p.m., ET) on
the ABC Television Network.
Operator: Welcome to ABC’s “The
Bachelor” call with Cathy Rehl as the leader. This call is
being recorded. By staying on this call you’re confirming
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recorded, please disconnect from the call at this time.
Thank you.
Miss Rehl, you may begin your call.
Cathy Rehl: Good afternoon, everybody. Thank you for joining
us. I have somebody who everybody is talking about today.
She’s still in the hunt for Juan Pablo’s heart. It’s Clare,
C-L-A-R-E, Crawley, C-R-A-W-L-E-Y. She’s on the phone with
us from Scottsdale, Arizona.
And we’re going to follow the usual rules: one question and
a follow up. And we can start right now.
Operator: And your first question comes from the line of
Beth Kwiatkowski with “Reality TV World.”
Beth Kwiatkowski: Hi, Clare. How’re you doing?
Clare Crawley: I’m doing wonderful. How are you?
Beth Kwiatkowski: I’m good. So I do have to address, I
think, the first obvious, awkward question. Juan Pablo
clearly felt guilt and regret about his late night swim with
you in the ocean. And (inaudible) to you, you became very
emotional and confused. And because of how strongly you both
reacted, it prompted a lot of speculation and media reports
that you two actually had sex in the ocean. So I just want
to give you a chance to set the record straight on that.
Clare Crawley: Yes. Definitely. I, first of all, I’m
thankful to have this opportunity to even talk about this
because I don’t think that it was made clear by anybody that
that’s not what happened. And I don’t want that to be – I
mean, I don’t want that incident to be anything equivocal.
And so I do want to say that that’s not what happened. That
was not my intention going into it. And as well as everybody
in that situation knows that that’s not what happened. So …
Beth Kwiatkowski: OK.
Clare Crawley: … it wasn’t – you know, that’s – I think
that’s why I was caught off guard was because that didn’t
happen.
Beth Kwiatkowski: OK. And, you know, another reason people
started speculating that was because of some comments that
were made. You know, like Juan Pablo said, “What happened,
happened.” And you made a comment like, “Well, we went for
it and I don’t regret it.” You also made a joking toast to
making love or something like that in front of some of the
girls.
So I just want you to talk about that a little bit. Like, do
you feel the editors almost went out of their way to give
the impression you two did more than make out, or? And if –
I guess if so, does that disappoint you or upset you?
Clare Crawley: I can see how people can think that but my –
first of all, my toast, I am the worst at giving toasts. I
never, never give toasts. I always duck out of that because
I don’t – I just am not good at it.
And so by the toast that I had made, it was coming from a
spot that nothing had happened. So I had – that wasn’t even
on my radar. So when I gave that toast, it was kind of, I
don’t know, it was more so my intention for the future and
my hopes and dreams for the future and something that I was
looking forward to. Because I was falling in love.
And being in the ocean and swimming in the ocean, all those
words, all those descriptive things that I was using to
describe how I felt that night, could be misinterpreted. But
it was, truthfully my description of falling in love. I
don’t know. I think people can take what they want from it
and interpret it however they want. But my intention was all
of falling in love.
Beth Kwiatkowski: OK. Thank you, so much, Clare.
Clare Crawley: Yes.
Operator: Your next question comes from the line of Gina
Scarpa with “That’s Your Reality”.
Gina Scarpa: Hey, Clare.
Clare Crawley: Hi.
Gina Scarpa: Hey, it’s so – you know, what’s interesting is
that Juan Pablo seemed so into the moment when you showed up
to have your rendezvous with him and then completely …
Clare Crawley: He was.
Gina Scarpa: … changed his tune. So, you know, I’m wondering
if he was trying to cover his tracks in case he ended up
choosing someone else. I mean, the fact that he ran off with
you in the middle of the night doesn’t look great. So do you
think he was kind of trying to save face for later down the
road if he had to address the issue?
Clare Crawley: You know, I’m not sure – to be quite honest.
I think that hindsight, possibly – because like you just
said, in the moment he was into it; I was into it. It was a
mutual, innocent, having fun in the ocean.
I was doing something that was on my bucket list. And I
don’t regret it – to this second I don’t regret it. Even
after this outcome and all the questions and regrets and,
you know, kind of discussions over it and tears. It’s – I
still don’t regret it because you’re swimming in the ocean,
living in the moment, and falling in love.
I can only stand up for my intentions into it. Whether he
was having different emotions after that, I couldn’t control
that. But at the time, we both were into it.
Gina Scarpa: And I was wondering if it was more difficult
for you in that initial moment or having to watch it back so
many months later?
Clare Crawley: The rose ceremony?
Gina Scarpa: Just the conversation between the two of you.
Clare Crawley: The cocktail party (before the rose)…
Gina Scarpa: Yes, the conversation between you two.
Clare Crawley: I think it’s more just difficult to watch it
now because – oh, you know what? That’s a good question
actually.
I think both then and now I didn’t understand where it was
coming from. Like I said, I still don’t regret it. And so we
did nothing wrong. And when it’s a mutual thing, you don’t –
and like I said as well in that episode, why didn’t you tell
me then?
Gina Scarpa: Right.
Clare Crawley: Why didn’t you stop me then? You’re a grown
man. I’m a grown woman. I may cry a lot and I may be
sensitive but I’m a grown woman and I can handle the truth.
And I don’t know. I think I wish in the moment and even now
that I would have been a little bit more verbal. And you’ll
see in the future episode – the next episode – that I stand
up for myself. And I take pride in that. And sometimes I can
be sensitive about things but I wish – it’s hard not saying
me stand up more for myself, I guess, in the moment of that
talk.
Gina Scarpa: Thank you so much. I appreciate it.
Clare Crawley: Yes. No problem.
Operator: Your next question comes from Evan Real with “In
Touch.”
Evan Real: Hey, Clare. How’s it going?
Clare Crawley: (Everything’s) it’s going pretty well.
Evan Real: Good. So when Juan Pablo told you that he
regretted what he did, like, how jarring or upsetting was it
to you in that moment, especially now that we know that you
really didn’t do anything in the ocean; it was just a swim?
And why do you think he regretted it so much? It still seems
a little bit unclear.
Clare Crawley: It is still unclear to me. At that point –
and I will stand by this again, swimming in the ocean is not
shameful. And I just feel like – I’m sorry. Repeat the
question. I just – I’m – it’s still, even just watching the
episode, it’s still kind of throws me off because I – I’m
sitting here saying, what did we do wrong?
What at that time – what was it? Because he was – he used
different excuses and different examples …
Evan Real: Right. Yes.
Clare Crawley: … to say why he thought it was wrong. And all
the reasons that he described and all the reasons that he
said to me was – it was his daughter was the example. He
didn’t want his daughter seeing that. But as you saw earlier
in the evening, he took me back to his suite to go swimming
in the pool. If anything, that – to me – is a little bit
more questionable. And …
Evan Real: Right.
Clare Crawley: … I had a little bit doubts about that more
so than the ocean.
Evan Real: Right.
Clare Crawley: So it was very unclear. There was no line
drawn and he also used the explanation that he didn’t feel
like it was fair to the other women. And my thoughts on that
were, basically, that that’s kind of why I went away.
And, first of all, it wasn’t four in the morning. I wanted
to make that clear. It wasn’t four in the morning.
Evan Real: Oh, really?
Clare Crawley: But – correct, yes. I – it was late but it
wasn’t four in the morning. It – he was saying it was taking
away time from the other women or it wasn’t fair for the
other women. But that’s why I did go away was because I
didn’t want to take away time from the other women. (It
wasn’t) involved with the other women.
And we were all – every woman has the same opportunities,
the same chances that I have.
Evan Real: Right.
Clare Crawley: And anybody could’ve done that. Anybody
could’ve had a feel in a moment. I just happened to have
been the one that said, “I’ve never swam in the ocean and
it’s on my bucket list.” And it was something that I wanted
to do with or without him to be quite honest.
And I had even – the day prior – invited the girls to go do
it with me because, again, I had never swam in the ocean. So
I just – I guess the line wasn’t clear …
Evan Real: Right.
Clare Crawley: … what his reasonings for it was.
Evan Real: He seems to kind of go back and forth on what he
wants – like kissing some, not kissing others and then
crying after your day in the ocean. Do you think this leads
girls on or do you think maybe he’s conflicted by being
attracted and then following his heart? Do you think that
that’s trouble for Juan?
Clare Crawley: I’m – I think, at the end of the day, we’re
all human. And we’re allowed to make mistakes. We’re allowed
to change our mind. We’re allowed to feel conflicted and the
thing that makes this hard is that it’s on national
television.
And I think somehow there’s that interpretation like you’re
not allowed to change your mind or you’re not allowed to
make mistakes. And, I don’t know, I just – it’s definitely,
definitely a struggle with him, I think. And I just think
that if you’re going to be entering into something of this
nature, you want to know exactly what you want, and exactly
what you’re looking for, and exactly your boundaries, and
exactly your integrity.
Have that all set up so you don’t have regrets, so you don’t
have questions and feel wishy-washy. You want to feel solid
on what you want. And that goes for even if you’re not on
TV. If your saying you’re ready to go into a serious
relationship, you need to have it clear what you’re looking
for and what you want. Otherwise it just makes for some
really confusing times and that’s not easy for anybody.
Evan Real: And that’s what you think has happened to Juan
(in this situation).
Clare Crawley: I’m sorry?
Evan Real: And that’s what you, like, think has happened to
Juan (in this situation) – to Juan Pablo.
Clare Crawley: That he got conflicted?
Evan Real: Right. Right, right. Yes.
Clare Crawley: Yes.
Evan Real: Yes.
Clare Crawley: And that’s OK. He’s allowed to do that. It
makes for difficult times, for sure.
Evan Real: Right. Well, thank you so much.
Clare Crawley: Thank you.
Operator: Your next question comes from the line of Amanda
Hamilton with “YourTango.”
Amanda Hamilton: Hi, Clare.
Clare Crawley: Hi.
Amanda Hamilton: Thanks so much for taking the call today.
Clare Crawley: No problem. Thank you.
Amanda Hamilton: The women referred to the group date during
Monday night as Clare’s one-on-one date. What were your
feelings kind of watching the episode and hearing the
comments that they had to say and their frustration?
Clare Crawley: I think it’s definitely unfortunate watching
it back because I had nothing but love for these girls. And
you can see – I mean, I guess, you guys can’t see this but –
we all borrowed each other’s clothes and helped each other
with doing each other’s hair and supported each other. And I
think we were all in this really vulnerable situation
together.
And so it’s unfortunate to me, hearing back, how they felt
and their thoughts on it and their description of it.
Because that wasn’t my intention – for them to feel pushed
to the side or to feel like they were all on our date. It’s,
I think, there’s a lot to be said for chemistry and a lot to
be said for having that connection. And if somebody’s
feeling insecure about it or whatever, that’s not something
I can change or that’s not something I can help them with.
And I think at the end of the day, we all were there to fall
in love – hopefully. You would hope. But I think I was doing
my part in saying this is what I want and this is me, how I
act, whether camera’s around or not. This is how I’m going
to be when I like a man and when I’m in a relationship or
wanting to be in a relationship. This is how I am.
And, again, they had the same opportunities that I had. And
also, I think that it takes two to partake in something. I
can’t just grab his hand and him have this limp, limp hand.
He’s going to hold it back. And if he does that, so be it.
It’s – if they’re uncomfortable with it, I feel bad about
that but we all had equal opportunities for that.
And it just happened to, at that time – him and I were
having a great date.
Amanda Hamilton: And then, who do you feel is your biggest
competition in the house?
Clare Crawley: I, as strange as this sounds, it wasn’t
competition. I know that’s probably cheesy to say but I felt
like it’s not a competition. You can’t – it’s not like the
best wins. It’s more so you can’t even make something
happen. You can’t make a connection happen. You can’t make
chemistry happen. It’s who he chooses and who works for him.
And what he’s attracted to and what he likes.
And so whether he chooses to keep people around or not, it’s
not competition. It was always what is he looking for? What
does he want? And at the end of the day, hopefully it’s love
and you can’t compete for that.
There could be 500 women there. There could be two women
there. If there’s chemistry with somebody and a connection,
it’s not a competition.
Amanda Hamilton: Great. Thank you.
Clare Crawley: Yes. Thank you.
Operator: Again, if you’d like to ask a question, please
press star, one on your telephone keypad.
Your next question comes from the line of Lori Peters with
“New York Splash.”
Lori Peters: Hey, Clare. How are you doing?
Clare Crawley: I’m good, Lori, how are you?
Lori Peters: Good. It sounds – like, when you first went to
Juan Pablo, it seems like you were upset and sad. And now it
sounds like you’re very angry. What’s your real feelings?
Clare Crawley: I’m not angry at all; I’ll tell you that. I
just – this is my time to say my part in it. And, again, I
just – I’m more so just want the reality of it to be out
there and the truth to be out there instead of the, kind of,
short clips that people are seeing. I want to be able to
elaborate on that.
And so it’s not anger. It’s just me wanting to describe the
truth of my perspective and my intentions. And so it’s not
anger at all. I can promise you that.
Lori Peters: OK. I think they made the show – on the promos
and stuff – like you were going to be sent home after that.
And is that any of what you were feeling when you were
crying about it?
Clare Crawley: I felt like if he wanted to send me home,
whether or not I had a rose in my hand from the group date
or not, he could’ve done so. And I allowed him that
opportunity to say, hey, if this is something that bothers
you that much or if this is that big of an issue to you,
totally send me home. If it doesn’t work for you or if you
are so offended by what happened, please, like, I’m an
adult. I’m a grown woman. It’s OK.
It’s not going to hurt me. It’s just saying that’s not what
works for you and that’s not something that works for me.
Because, again, I would do the same thing with somebody that
I’m falling in love with. It’s follow your heart. It’s
feeling passionate. It’s allowing yourself to open up to
living in the moment and I don’t regret that.
And if that’s why you want to send me home, send me home.
It’s OK. But, like I said, you can see in the next episode,
I just wanted clarity on that. And he was at any time
allowed to send me home.
Lori Peters: OK. Thank you.
Clare Crawley: Yes.
Operator: Your next question comes from the line of Lesley
Messer with “ABC News.”
Lesley Messer: Hi, Clare.
Clare Crawley: Hi.
Lesley Messer: I don’t know if you’ve read some of the blogs
but actually Juan Pablo has taken a lot of heat for what
happened on last week’s episode and people have said
everything from, “He’s a bad guy,” to “He’s anti-feminist.”
So did the whole situation change your perspective of who he
is as a person and is there anything you want to say about
Juan Pablo?
Clare Crawley: Did having this situation change my opinion
of him that night or – as that happened?
Lesley Messer: Yes. Did it – I guess, did what happened
change your opinion on Juan Pablo or is he being sort of
misrepresented in some of these opinion pieces that have
come out about him after what happened?
Clare Crawley: I don’t think I can speak really for how he
explained things. I’m not one that’s personally into all the
blogs and Twitter and all that. I try but I’m – it’s just
not my thing. I’m usually the one’s that’s not on my phone,
not on my computer. I’m out doing things and so I don’t pay
too much attention to it but at the same time I don’t put
too much weight on it.
He’s I think more into it than I am and so I think putting
yourself out there on that level and letting people in more
and more and more to that, you’re going to have to expect a
backlash to whatever you say. You can put anything out
there. If you put a simple pic out there, a simple quote out
there, it can be interpreted any way.
And so the more you do that, the more I think people are
going to have opportunity to jump on things. And he’s
allowed to feel how he feels and if he wants to put it all
out there continually on the Twitter or the internet, he’s
allowed to. He just needs to know that it comes with the
territory having all that backlash.
Lesley Messer: Great. And the other thing is, you know,
obviously this is a mutual decision. He’s picking – he’s
choosing what woman is right for him and you also then have
to decide if he’s right for you. So did this situation sort
of give you pause about him at all or change the way you
looked at him?
Clare Crawley: In Vietnam it definitely caught me off guard.
And I think it definitely set me back and took me back into
my mind and took me out of my heart. And what happened in
the ocean and that whole day on the Vietnam date I was
living in my heart and my heart feelings.
And it sent me back to that little hamster wheel that goes
on in your brain. Like, should I do this? Shouldn’t I do
this? It makes you question things more and it was something
that I didn’t want to do. I didn’t want to have to question
everything.
And so, going into the show, I felt like I’m going to put it
all out there. I’m going to be 100 percent me. If he likes
it, awesome. If he doesn’t, that’s OK. And at the end of the
day, I knew everything was going to work out how it was
supposed to.
And I just think that it definitely put me back in my mind –
my brain, not in my heart. So that I didn’t like because,
like I said, I was going whole-heartedly into this.
Lesley Messer: Thank you.
Clare Crawley: Thank you.
Operator: Your next question comes from the line of
Gabrielle Olya with “People Magazine.”
Gabrielle Olya: Hey, Clare.
Clare Crawley: Hi.
Gabrielle Olya: I know you said that, you know, he could’ve
let you go home even if you had the rose but did it ever
cross your mind – after he kind of, you know, almost shamed
you – that you felt like you wanted to go home on your own
or that you just wanted to leave at that point? Did that
ever cross your mind?
Clare Crawley: It definitely crossed my mind. What had
crossed my mind, after everything happened at the rose
ceremony and after we had even gone back to the hotel, I was
thinking I want somebody in my life that is positive in my
life. And somebody that makes my life better. Because I’ve
already had – I have a great life and love is what I came
into this show looking for.
And so part of that is loving you for your imperfections,
loving you for your little mistakes and loving you for your
good and bad. And so it definitely made me want to run. It
made me want to leave because I felt, like, “God, you’re
supposed to lift somebody up and encourage somebody and be
supportive.” And so it made me question is that what I want.
Gabrielle Olya: And what made you want to stay?
Clare Crawley: What made me want to stay was that real
relationships go through ups and downs. I think the key to
them is talking things out and working through problems. And
life isn’t always wonderful. And so you want to be able to
be with somebody that you can work things out with and, at
the end of the day, you can fight it out and then you
embrace each other and hold each other and get through it
together.
And shows that strength in somebody I think and I didn’t
want to give up on him because I wouldn’t want somebody to
give up on me that easily.
Gabrielle Olya: Thank you.
Clare Crawley: Yes. Thank you.
Operator: Your next question comes from the line of Shari
Von Holten with HaveUHeard.net.
Shari Von Holten: (Harrison) had mentioned on his blog that
he had suggested to Juan Pablo to maybe wait a few days
before speaking to you about the incident. And actually Juan
Pablo mentioned on his blog the same thing. But do you think
you would have felt better about the incident if Juan Pablo
had waited before talking to you about it?
Clare Crawley: I don’t know if waiting is the answer that
would’ve made me feel better about it. I think his manner on
how he spoke to me and what he said to me and the words that
he used to me – say it at any point. Say it as soon as you
feel it or wait a couple days that wasn’t the issue for me.
It was how he approached it and the words he used and how he
made me feel when he used those words. And that’s what I had
more of the problem with.
Shari Von Holten: OK. And also, looking back at the date and
how the women perceived you, did you leave the – when it – I
mean, did you – do you still keep in touch with any of the
women? Are you friend – do you consider any of them your
friends?
Clare Crawley: Absolutely. I didn’t go into this expecting
to make strong friendships but I’m definitely – I talk to a
lot of the women on a daily basis.
Shari Von Holten: OK.
Clare Crawley: And like I said earlier, I think it’s
unfortunate that some women choose to take a different path
and find humor in disrespecting other women. But that’s
their prerogative and I just choose to try and stay positive
about it. And I think talking negatively about somebody and
saying hurtful things about somebody only makes that person
look bad.
So it’s unfortunate.
Shari Von Holten: OK. Thank you.
Clare Crawley: Yes. Thank you.
Operator: You have a follow up question from the line of
Beth Kwiatkowski with “Reality TV World.”
Beth Kwiatkowski: Hi, Clare.
Clare Crawley: Hi.
Beth Kwiatkowski: So Chris Harrison said in an interview
this week that, despite Juan Pablo’s apology to you after
the ocean incident, he thought he made you feel cheap and
was even borderline rude to you. And I guess Juan Pablo
didn’t really see that perspective. I guess he didn’t really
care.
So, I guess, what’s your response to that and do you agree
with Chris Harrison?
Clare Crawley: I do agree with Chris Harrison. I think, at
the end of the day, it’s you’re delivery on what you say.
And I don’t think that’s a language barrier. I think it’s
how you choose to make a woman feel and I think it’s how
sensitive you approach a topic, especially something
involving – I don’t know. I just – you shouldn’t make women
cry.
Whether it’s right or wrong or whether you feel good about
it, you shouldn’t make a woman cry. And it was – it was
pretty bad at the time. It was pretty bad. It made me feel
awful.
Beth Kwiatkowski: OK. Got it. And, you know, going back to
how he actually invited you to swim in the pool at his own
suite, how long were you two away from the group at that
point? And would the thought have ever crossed your mind of
swimming in the ocean had Juan Pablo not invited you to his
suite first? Like, did that kind of lead into the ocean
swim?
Clare Crawley: We were probably around the – we were away
from the girls for about 20 minutes probably, which wasn’t
unheard of because he pulls aside women for different
amounts of time. But if we hadn’t gone back to his suite, I
think that was just a separate (entity). I think it made me
feel a lot more comfortable with asking him and I thought we
were on the same page with that.
I didn’t think that he would pull me aside in the first
place to go swimming in his pool during a cocktail party. I
thought that was taking away time away from the women and I
felt bad about that but I was in the moment. I was loving it
and I was more than happy to be doing it because, at that
time, you’re falling in love.
And so, like I said earlier, going swimming in the ocean – I
wanted to do it with the girls. I wanted to do it by myself.
It didn’t matter who I did it with; I just wanted to swim in
the ocean and check that off my bucket list. I never in my
mind was thinking, “This is going to be something raunchy,”
or “This is going to be something bad.” I literally wanted
to check something off my bucket list and do it.
And so that happened to been the – he was the reason I was
in Vietnam and it was only fitting for me to feel like, he’s
the reason I’m here; when else am I going to be in Vietnam
being able to swim in this warm bathwater kind of a feel of
an ocean?” I’d never felt that. And so I would’ve done it
with or without him regardless.
Beth Kwiatkowski: OK. And Chris Harrison has kind of dubbed
Juan Pablo a little bit of a rule changer. Like he says one
thing but then does another. And the ocean incident with you
wasn’t the first time. You know, we also saw him refuse to
kiss girls like Renee or Lauren during the group date,
saying he didn’t want to kiss anyone that night but then he
actually did end up making out with you.
So, I guess, what are your thoughts on that and, watching
the episodes back – especially now that you know what was
going on – would you say he might be a little hypocritical
at times?
Clare Crawley: In the moment of it all, again, we don’t see
and we don’t talk amongst the girls about what happens with
each other – or at least we didn’t on this season. And so we
kind of kept everything to ourselves. So I didn’t know he
hadn’t any women. I didn’t talk about myself kissing him. So
it was all kind of kept in the dark.
Seeing it played back, it’s definitely wishy-washy and it’s
definitely hypocritical. I had told him in a prior
conversation with him that I didn’t want to kiss him and I
didn’t want the physical part to be the focus of things. And
it’s one thing if it’s fair; it’s one thing if you don’t
want to kiss somebody. But don’t blame it on something.
Don’t make an excuse for it. Just say, “I don’t want to do
that right now,” or don’t put yourself in a situation that
you’re going to feel pressure to do that.
It’s OK to not kiss everybody but don’t say something and do
another.
Beth Kwiatkowski: Right. OK. Thanks, Clare.
Clare Crawley: Yes. Thank you.
Operator: You have a follow up question from the line of
Amanda Hamilton with “YourTango.”
Amanda Hamilton: Hi again.
Clare Crawley: Hi.
Amanda Hamilton: So what was the most frustrating or maybe
hurtful part of the conversation that you and Juan Pablo had
prior to the rose ceremony and how did you get yourself to
bounce back after such a dramatic event, especially – I
mean, you were staying in the house so I’m sure you kind of
had to. But how did you bounce back the next day and move
on?
Clare Crawley: The hardest thing about that was the
confusion. Because, like I said before – and like everybody
saw – he was more than willing to go swimming in the ocean.
He was more than willing to participate in it. He was more
than willing to enjoy it.
And I know there’s no mics on in the ocean and stuff like
that but he was having a blast just like I was having a
blast. We were living in the moment, swimming in the ocean.
And so, in my eyes, it just really was strange to me that he
had such a dramatic opposite reaction to it. That threw me
off.
And what he was blaming it on was – one of the reasons was –
he has a daughter and he didn’t want his daughter to see
something like this. But, again, I didn’t understand it
because, although I don’t have children, I still have
integrity.
And he knew that that wasn’t my intention in going in the
water. He knew that nothing happened in the water. And – as
well as everybody that was there. You know, so it just
really was strange to me and I didn’t understand.
Amanda Hamilton: And then, how did you kind of bounce back
the next day?
Clare Crawley: Oh, I’m sorry. I forgot the second part to
that question (inaudible).
Amanda Hamilton: That’s OK. That’s OK.
Clare Crawley: How did I bounce back? I think I chalked it
up at the time to a) I wanted to stand up for myself because
I still felt and believed – to this day – I did nothing
wrong; we did nothing wrong. And I needed to get answers as
well as I didn’t want to give up on somebody so I wanted to
get the answers and, if it’s what I wanted to hear, I would
make the decision. It was much his decision, me staying
there, as it was my decision.
And so, if I didn’t get the answers that I wanted, I was
more than willing to cut my losses and stand up for myself.
Amanda Hamilton: And then one last question …
Clare Crawley: And I had (inaudible) I think …
Amanda Hamilton: Oops, go ahead.
Clare Crawley: I’m sorry. Go ahead.
I think I just had that clear line in my head of what I want
and what I don’t want and what I’ll stand up for and what I
won’t put up with. So it made it easy for me to just move
on.
Life’s not always easy so you just have to work through
things. And at that time, I wanted to be there.
Cathy Rehl: OK.
Amanda Hamilton: And then …
Cathy Rehl: I’m going to ask for a last question please.
Operator: And you have a follow up question from the line of
Lesley (Messinger) with ABC News.
Lesley Messer: Hi, Clare. You mentioned before that he was –
that Juan Pablo was making excuses. Do you think, in this
case, he was using his daughter as an excuse?
Clare Crawley: I think an excuse – yes, I do. I do at that
time. And maybe at that time he didn’t know exactly what he
was feeling and he just felt bad about it. But, again, we
swam in his pool in his room and that, to me, was more
questionable than swimming in the ocean.
And so that was my struggle. I didn’t understand that.
Lesley Messer: Thanks. And also you mentioned before you
were thinking with your heart and thinking with your – and
then you moved to your head which made a lot of sense. And I
was just wondering if, after this happened, you had a change
of heart toward him and if that – if your opinion of him –
if you were worried that your opinion of him had sort of
changed and couldn’t go back.
Clare Crawley: I was more so thinking that I wanted to stay
feeling in my heart and I still wanted to follow my heart. I
didn’t want to be back thinking in my brain. I wanted to be
back feeling my heart.
And I needed to do that. And I want to do that in any
relationship. I want to completely feel. And that’s why I
came on such an extreme level in putting myself out there on
a show like this is that I was ready and willing to
completely put my heart into it. And that was more so my
fear – I didn’t want to revert back to thinking in my brain
and those silly relationships that you just worry about and
worry about and worry about.
I didn’t want that. I can find that in Sacramento or
anywhere else. I didn’t want that. I wanted to put myself
into a situation with a man who wanted the same thing as me.
And it did make me question a little bit because I thought
we were on the same page.
Lesley Messer: Thank you.
Clare Crawley: Thank you.
Operator: And there are no further questions at this time.
Cathy Rehl: Thanks, everybody. I think if you tune in this
week, you get a chance to see their story continue – that is
Clare and Juan Pablo. And, you know, that Clare is trying to
get some clarification she didn’t get in the last episode.
So with that, if you have any questions, please let either
myself or Mitch Messinger or (Phyllis Lew) know and we
hopefully will be talking to you sometime next week.
Clare Crawley: Thank you, everybody.
Operator: This does conclude today’s conference call. You
may now disconnect.
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